And the day came…..
When the risk to remain
Tight in a bud
Was more painful
Than the risk it took to blossom
I found this poem by Anais Nin on a piece of paper buried in one of my files and was amazed at all the images and ideas that bubbled up. Spring and planting which I have been thinking about now that the weather has gotten warmer. All the tender green shoots of grass and buds on the flowering trees that have been twirling and opening up in the warm sun. Those tight buds have felt the first stirrings of Spring, loosen and twist themselves open, never knowing if a blast of wintry cold will freeze them up when they are most vulnerable. They shoot their delicate roots into the warm earth to anchor themselves while they reach for the light.
A few months ago I led a Spring meditation asking participants to plant seeds for dreams and goals that they wanted to manifest and grow for this year. I asked them to imagine themselves as the seeds that they planted and picture themselves as being in a hard case that they would have to break out of in order to reach the warm sun. The seed casing, representing what obstacles we have to break out of in order to reach for what we want to realize this year.
We all want to remain tight and warm and secure. This is what we know and it’s comfortable and we want our lives to be this way but there is no growth and blossoming of our spirit! In order to move our lives forward we need to break loose from that tight bud and unfurl our colors and shoot for the sun! But with this comes great risk as we make ourselves vulnerable to what may come upon us all of a sudden.
I feel like I go two steps forward at times and one step backward in retreat. I have all these great ideas for where I should be going and then don’t keep the energy moving forward and it gets all muddled and sidetracked. If I were a plant I would be growing all wonky as they say. I want this year to have my business blossom and I need to just push myself off into the unknown and reach for the sun and see what I find in the light. Sitting in my shell is not getting me to where I want to be and I am feeling definitely squished! It seems safe it is definitely not comfortable. I am getting impatient with wanting more for what I want to do with this life. I feel that my biggest obstacle is myself and feeling that how I see as my dreams are not as good as something else and may be a bit crazy. Well so be it!
Let all the crazies run out of the earth together and run around in the sun!
What has been holding you in your seed shell?